Starting over....

I started this blog as a way to vent my frustrations I was experiencing at the time with my lil one's dad. I wanted a way to let it go. I felt that if I wrote it down for the world to see then maybe I could move on and people would realize I did do everything in my power to make it work between myself and the "dad".

It was nearly a year ago that I began writing and almost 3 since the drama with the "dad". I have learned to let go of most of my anger and frustration with him and realize it's his problem and I can not and will not feel guilty for the relationship that is nonexistent with Lil bit. I will continue to tell that story, because I do feel it needs to be shared. I believe it may even help others that find themselves in my similar situation.

Today however I want to talk about something else.... Starting over....

After a horribly bad breakup w/ lil bit's "dad" I was giving up on men. I was done... I never wanted to be hurt again. I never thought I would ever be able to trust anyone again. After mulling over my bitterness for months I decided to try again.. give it one more shot.

So, in February 2010 I met this amazing man on the internet (we will call him, Jack). Yep, I went the match.com route. At the time I lived in a tiny town and didn't have many options so I needed to branch out... So onto Match.com I went. I was a major skeptic. After the first month I was gonna call it quits and delete the account... however just as I was ready to throw in the towel I got this email from this adorable guy. He too was a skeptic but willing to take a shot. I wrote him back and so it began... email after email... then we graduated to text messages... and finally phone calls.. On March 8th, 2010 we went on our first date.

He showed up at my house right on time. I was so nervous... scared.... excited.... I opened the door and there he was... He looked even better than the pic on his profile. He looked good.. At that moment I told myself I was gonna marry this man. So I greeted him and asked him in. I quickly finished getting ready and we were on our way.

Our first date was a complete bust!!! Awful!!! I quickly learned that he was not a planner... he was a go w/the flow kind of guy. After driving around for 30 minutes he finally decided on Red Lobster for dinner. After dinner we went to Walmart and walked around.. (Seriously this was our date. you can't make this stuff up!!) At walmart we picked a movie to take to the house and watch. It was the worst movie ever too!!! Sweeney Todd!!!! Blood, guts, and singing!!!

I still had a great time with him. I was so ready to see him again as soon as he left. Apparently he had a great time too!! Two days later he was back to hang out again and this time he brought flowers!!! =)

I wish I could say it continued on like this for years to come and that we are living happily ever after.... but that isn't true... stay tuned to hear more about Jack!!!!

One helluva story....

So you may be wondering where I got the name of the blog... well keep reading and you will truly understand... but until then I will give you the short of the short story. I have some of the best friends. They are always there for me when I need them... one day I was having an awful day and was complaining that I didn't know how to deal with everything that I had going on in my life. My besties told me hey girl write it down... tell your story. Then we joked about what we would call it.. My fave idea was none other than 'One helluva story' because that is what it has been. You would never believe it happened if you don't read it for yourself. Please enjoy the blog... as I get back to it and begin writing regularly.